I stand by the window
The sun is rising and the birds are singing
Cotton wool clouds pass by
I imagine they tase like sugar
Big, juicy bundles of cotton candy
As sweet as marshmallow
The thought makes me feel full inside
Like it is worth staying another day
I would like to walk over grass again - climb a tor, see the sea
I wonder how that would feel - if it would be painful walk backwards
Perhaps finding different places of safety is like moving on
Keeping the few happy memories of youth alive in my mind
I am always moving inside - escaping, surviving
But I am trying to absorb myself in the landscape I have for now
Perhaps even thinking of a world outside and beyond is a start
More fulfilling than powders and pills
I leave my curtains open and wait for a buttery sunrise
I hope it embraces me and makes me feel safe.
Definitely sounds like a rather yummy landscape and I do hope it embraces you and makes you feel safe.
ReplyDeleteI hope so too, Jae. All my life, that blue sky has kept me Looking Up. The beauty all around gets me through my days. Look for a wise old tree and make friends..........trees are aware of us. The forest hears us when we enter. Sometimes I think they cup their ears to hear what we're thinking. Smiles.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written, Jae. The inside/outside dichotomy you create with imagery comes to focus for me in one simple and powerful line: "I leave my curtains open." The hope and promise this image contains suggests a movement towards freedom.
ReplyDeleteI love the thought of ‘big, juicy bundles of cotton candy’, Jae! That’s a great thing to do, leave the curtains open and wait for a buttery sunrise!
ReplyDelete"Cotton wool clouds pass by
ReplyDeleteI imagine they tase like sugar "
Luv your clouds. There are just like mine.
Much love
eric here. such delicious descriptive landscape! and oh the safety of being grounded. nice write!
ReplyDeleteAbsorbing myself in the landscape around me always helps to soothe me.
ReplyDelete"I leave my curtains open and wait for a buttery sunrise
ReplyDeleteI hope it embraces me and makes me feel safe. "
Love this, Jae!
A deliciously beautiful landscape, Jae, that is so inviting as well as soothing.
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