I was nothing more than a bag of sugar
A summer gift never rejoiced
The cat in the floor tiles smiles
Not all good things are born at Christmas time
The jam jars sit pretty on the shelf
Time to peel the labels off
Alice squeals and claps like a lunatic
Fingers sticky until twelve o'clock
In the winter came a bag of toys
We would have traded them for love
Outside heavy births of rain
Like planets falling she giggles
We pull on the threads of angels
Untangle their wishes and dreams
Let’s hitch a ride and fly into space
She wipes the jam off her lips
Hyper fix
The milk sits quietly in the fridge
I used eight percent
Our hair still smells like hospital sheets
Let's put our words on the table
Crash bang
The building falls down
The little girl sleeps underground
Fear makes the wolf look bigger
Grandmother wrote on the wall
She smelt old whispers Alice
Liquorice and linen tucked in drawers forever and ever and ever
I will remember every moment of you
You will not be lost
Even when time spreads thin
And spins like plates
On top of dwindling poles
A tower of fruit cake stands on the side
Some kind of crafty endeavour
Ready steady tumble down
Tread carefully
I say
Like rain
Like snow
Like a summer gift barely touched in the night .
There is something elusively beautiful in this Jae, almost as those secrets of the past were being shared. "Ring a ring of rosey...and we all fall down" was brought mind too. This really is outstanding.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Old Egg...it was a a bit of a jar of memories...i remember doing Ring a ring of rosey in a huge circle at school - hadn't made the connection...everything sinks into the mind like sugar I suppose
DeleteFear does make the wolf look bigger. In fact, too much thinking about the wolf will almost guarantee that he sticks around, growing stronger every day. It's better to feed the mice and rabbits, and make a happy home. The wolf will grow bored and move on to more savory prey.
ReplyDeleteThat's a good tactic thank you Ann...mice and rabbits are smart...i shall follow their lead and keep the wolf at the door
DeleteFascinating and nightmarish. I love such things!
ReplyDeleteSo many of us live with dark fears that we are afraid to share lest we be ridiculed. At least I do.
http://poetryofthenetherworld.blogspot.com/2014/12/forever-your-little-loser.html
Thank you Cara - good to see you and thanks for the add...(the great thing about blogging is even if you are ridiculed you don't know or hear ;)
DeleteTrading toys for love is as futile as trying to breath under water, and yet some of us keep trying, don't we?
ReplyDeleteA Tiny Whirlwind
Always and forever...thank you kindly Magical
DeleteJae this is a wonderful piece. I awoke this morning, snow on the ground, sad and lonely, for the most part I keep that wolf in the pantry, but not this morning, and your piece made me smile!
ReplyDeleteThank you Annell...we are glad it made you smile...maybe we can help get that wolf out of your pantry and into the woods...s/he will steal all the jam in there xo
Deletecertainly materials things cannot replace being loved, your theme is heartwrenching, what a wonderfully crafted piece
ReplyDeleteHave a beautiful Sunday; i'm happy you stopped over at my blog
much love
Thank you very much Gillena...it's nice to be able to stop by other people's blogs again....happy Sunday back
DeleteWolves are a symbol of the teacher, or guide. I have a beautiful black wolf in my personal mythology and he has been both a friend and wise companion. He watches over my thoughts to make sure I don't stray too far off the path I have chosen. I like what you wrote, it resonates with so much of my own reality, and especially love the first about remembering every moment of you.
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Thank you kindly Elizabeth....I am glad you have a guide and teacher...mine has yet to take shape or form but I am sure s/he will make themselves known when the time is right....what about me says Alice...well...I am sure she will always be there but maybe we both need a wiser guide
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ReplyDelete'Outside heavy births of rain
Like planets falling' ~ love so much this line! ~ After big storm the silence often seems as revelation....~ Glad you back, Jae :)x
Yes it does humbird...like wiping the slate clean....good to be here thank you xo
DeleteWow...so true...not all good things...
ReplyDeleteThank you Tammie - good to see you
DeleteLovely, heartfelt piece of writing, Jae.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Purple...
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