The sun shines prison bars on the carpet
Here I am again
Back
At the start
Or the end
Not quite sure
Which way is up
Up
Climbing up the walls
Like poison
Poison ivy around your house
don’t say good bye don’t say hello
Not generous enough to speak
I sit
Head down
Down
I went down
Six months
The penalty another twelve
A reward
They say
one sheet twenty words one hundred and twenty minutes
over and over and fucking over until I slowly disappear
gone gone gone
How terrible the headaches
How terrible that people ache
Around them
I sit
Head down
Down
There are no people
To ache
In my head
Up
Climbing up the walls
They are more
deserving
real
just
I am not there
gone gone gone
How terrible my head aches
How terrible people make me ache
The sun shines prison bars on the carpet
I do not move them.
