We take our powder unrefined
Like our soul
Empty and yellowed
Sugary little stones to step on
Prolonged use can make you dependant
She caws
Like the bile in the back of my throat
Shut up
Shut up
You are nothing but a habit forming
Like hearing subliminals at every turn
We are sniffing powder like it's going out of fashion
Milky keeps the medicine down
Our two pm chaser
In front of Father Brown
Chasing rabbit like he's going down
She claps her hands
Living the dream
Empty packets and pie crusts swim on the floor
Let the spiders crawl
I can mix up a potion
Make my own label
Fuck you all
Well, that’s not very amicable
She straightens her lace
Neither is the world
This is not a dream
It is tar black terror
Do you not see
I only sleep when the light is on
And the papers are in my hand
Well, I was only saying
A girl must try her best
The man sucked a bronze key
Waiting for his magic
We have nothing to wait for
No magic
No key
No frivolous turn of favour
We are going down
Our powder unrefined
Chasing a habit a rabbit
I try to trip him up
But it does not work like that
This habit will never end
Fall out of favour or fashion.
Blew my mind again, Jae Rose--refined, unrefined--so sayeth the one who chooses the drugged way to making no noise. Who can afford it. Let me lay aside my coffeed pain-killered mind/body/spirit and see then if I can comply--be a little dependent lady. I had hoped, I had thought that in some countries, at least, this had gone out of fashion. But it's lurking in silent rooms and in subliminal messages, in magazines and sitcoms.
ReplyDeleteYes...it is lurking everywhere...such is the fashion...maybe we can rise up against it - thank you Susan
DeleteBeautifully written. Any habit can be changed, though, with sufficient motivation. The motivation is the key, though. And unlike keys of brass, it's not something someone else can give or take away. It's more like a small treasure we discover when we least expect it.
ReplyDeleteThank you Ann - for they keys of understanding and hope...much appreciated
DeleteYes, we have to try our best, and along never late to start a new habit, something positive...~ Love your take, Jae :)x
ReplyDeleteThank you humbird...if only I wasn't such a magnet to the negative! ;)
DeleteOr perhaps it will...
ReplyDeleteI hope...thank you Kim
DeleteA wonderful write! I really love that 'tar black terror.' Well I guess I don't really like it, but I like the way you used it.
ReplyDeleteThank you Annell... Maybe it gets diluted when you pour it out xo
Deletebad habits can be replaced with better ones~ always find the positive don't let anyone or anything silence that light.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sheilagh...my light bearer :)
DeleteYou blow my mind, too, Jae Rose. Your writing is astonishing and has great impact on the reader. Wow. I LOVE "We take our powder unrefined like our soul empty and yellowed." You have such talent. May those subliminals grow ever more hopeful and kind, dear one.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sherry - kindness and hope would be good...I guess I have just received some of both :)
Deletethe powder piles up like snow, getting deeper and deeper. You could fall down a rabbit hole without even knowing it's under your feet, buried under the habit.
ReplyDeleteYes indeed (wise) Alice.. Can't see the wolf for the door....maybe we can buy a shovell though...thank you
DeleteEveryone has their heroine and it isn't easy to forget and forgive. Some people change and some people don't. We can't fall to the vices that surround us, and so we must guide those who do the best we can.
ReplyDeleteThats a nice thought...thank you Kenn...sometimes it takes a lot of patience and perseverance which can tire the happiest soul
Deletereminds me of the verse I used to read on bathroom walls in Junior High - so much pressure. I hope someday you take your work and publish it.
ReplyDeleteThank you Moonie - very kind...maybe it would keep me just above the rabbit hole..to have it chained to paper
DeleteYes, some things always are in fashion. Undeniably so!
ReplyDeleteYes....and not as harmless as dungarees...sadly...thank you Mary
DeleteYou capture the madness of addiction well here, Jae. Expressively written.
ReplyDeleteThank you Hannah...It's a little mad at the minute but not so mad it can't be captured
DeleteMaybe this is the time to start a new habit and get rid of an old one.
ReplyDeleteI think so Gabriella..thank you
DeleteIt is not the problem that is the problem it is the cure. Josephine I am sure did not say "let them eat cake" when all they wanted was bread. How graphically you illustrate your work Jae; probably the people that need to see it can't read.
ReplyDeleteThank you Old Egg... Yes and no..well can read but not 'hear'...sigh...but my friends can and that counts for much
DeleteSnorting drugs are still rampant. A social stigma impacting on youngsters which adults perhaps had given up trying to stamp out. Good that this is brought into the open Jae!
ReplyDeleteHank
The old are just as rampant in their addictions but yes...the earlier we feel hopeful the better..thank you hank
Deleteyou have the power to change and control. but there are times we are too dependent on things that can ease up our body / soul/ mind...
ReplyDeleteYes..exactly so...thank you kindly Totomai
DeleteGritty and grim but always fine writing Jae Rose ~ I don't understand this addiction but I hope it ends if ultimately it will hurt the person and those around him/her ~
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Grace - I don't understand it much either but hopefully there will be an end
DeleteThe poem matches the depth an addiction can go to. Very well written.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much GL
DeleteTook me back to living London in the 60's when anything went (Yes I am that old!) For me the habit ended but for so many it didn't
ReplyDeleteThank you Keith - there's nothing swinging about it really is there...I hope that once the corner is turned it will become a thing of the past...and I'm old too!
Deleteit is so hard for someone who has never experienced an addiction to understand and so hard for someone who is addicted to change. I think you captured the judgement, the self loathing, the "constantness" of the battle perfectly.
ReplyDeleteThank you Dee - for getting it - and me! A little rest would be welcome..xo
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