There is a green light
In the grey building
Toothless Joe
Is on a different bench
Not bench B
He waves like he really wants to see me
It’s a motion I am not used to
I have no place to go but walk quickly
We are all good
We are all good
We are servants of the sanctuary
I go in the grey building
It is cold
The breath falls on the prayer paper
Makes it curl
Paper groaning under the weight of
Hope
There is none
I know
I have no place here
I have no place anywhere
I sit and wait
Sit and wait
All I do
As if some vision will give me purpose
Thought
Warmth
Four hours I sit
In the empty bath
quiet quiet quiet
don’t make a sound
if you make a sound you’ll wake him and when he wakes he
won’t stop never stop
no peace
no silence
nothing
just time replayed
different man
different place
same fear
I walk quickly
I have no place to go
Maybe I should go back
To toothless Joe
Take his wave and wrap it round my shoulders
He knows
We are servants of the sanctuary
empty
hollow
cold.
nothing
ReplyDeletejust time replayed
different man
different place
same fear
Fear must go..it must...You send shivers with your words.. Jae..
RS:)
It must go Ramesh..if only the words worked in the real world..thank you ..
DeleteSo strong and powerful
ReplyDeleteThank you Janie.. :)
DeleteOh dear sounds very bleak
ReplyDeleteapproaching dark winter
does not help
Think duck egg blue
silver and yellow
eat bakewell tarts
sip from tiny bottles of
champagne
watch MadMen on tv
under a rose patterned duvet
with the cat
until spring arrives
That is what I would do
Smiles and hugs
and tease comb that
Big hair of yours:)
Oh fuck is on my mind..but then I have no manners..maybe I should switch the beer for champagne..Mad Max for MadMen..sound advice thank you kindly Rallentanda..j is currently fluffing her hair.. (And thinking this drop down comment malarkey is a pain in the arse)
DeleteI walk quickly
ReplyDeleteI have no place to go
Some people feel that motion, even meaningless motion, is a good thing. Those going nowhere quickly might argue otherwise. Great work!
Yes thank you Nico at least if you are not moving inside you are on the outside..walking is a feeling..
DeleteNice poem love the words play.
ReplyDeleteThank you Chris,,
DeleteTo sit in a bath for hours... goodness, talk about as wrinkled as a prune.
ReplyDeleteTake Joe's wave and wrap it round your shoulders.
As usual Jae, your imagery is stunning.
It was empty..so not too pruney..thank you Daydreamer..a hearty wave can be a good thing..
ReplyDeleteSuch pain in this piece I want to do more than wave I want to let the person know that they matter.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sheilagh ( I think they heard)...
DeleteI feel God is answering your prayer by making you figure what you want :)
ReplyDeleteI see hope and love here ...
Thank you very much Nimue..I hope it is so..
DeleteYou are a real Pandora with your writing you open up and spill all the fears of the world for us to see but luckily hope remains. This is really one of your most effective, sad and beautiful pieces that you have published.
ReplyDeleteThank you Old Egg..let us hope..
DeleteThat empty/hollow/cold can sometimes make you wave when you wouldn't otherwise.
ReplyDeleteThat's a nice thought..thank you Alice..
DeleteWow wow wow .... you amaze me every time ... you really know how to bring emotions out of your words !!!
ReplyDeleteThank you..every time..Green Speck..
Delete'just time replayed, different man, different place.' so many
ReplyDeletefeel the same way. perhaps joe is safer.
In some ways he probably is..when you have not much to lose..you often have more to give..thank you Paige..
DeleteSuch a sad and weary piece. The uncertainty and fear of being alone wrestle with the fear of not being alone. It isn't an easy choice. You've expressed it well.
ReplyDeleteWeary..I've been tying to find the right word..think that's it..thank you very much..
DeleteWe are all servants of the sanctuary, as we must all be servants of something. But do we serve a real place of hope and safety, or a false sanctuary? That is the question not answered here.
ReplyDeleteIt is false..of course..when you are running maybe sanctuary is more pause than stop..thank you Ann..
Delete'Servants of the Sanctuary'.....but remember, the sanctuary is also there to serve you! Accept Joe's wave, wave back and double the joy, and find the warmth.
ReplyDeleteThank you Altonian..for finding the silver lining..
ReplyDeleteWe are all good...
ReplyDeleteWe are all good...
Yes we are. We just have to remember to FEEL it!
thank you Mary..it is hard to do at times..
DeleteThis one evokes the feeling of the hamster in the wheel... caught in an unchangeable pattern. There is a hint of the keen desire for all to be different, and a clarity of the perception that none of it ever will be. Gripping, filled with vivid imagery... I SO knew the tub was empty, cold; and you make clear the need for warmth, the yearning for real connection.
ReplyDeleteYes and yes Kim..thank you..thank you..if only hamster wheels came with an exit ramp..
ReplyDeleteThis silence does not seem benevolent, but entrapping... even though it is a place of sanctuary, perhaps it is not a sanctuary that is willing given.
ReplyDeleteYes silence can be a nasty trap..perhaps chosen silence is benevolent..a sanctuary..but when it is not chosen..not so..thank you Abigail..
DeleteAt times like this are we better off with those who know, or those who don't. When with those who don't know we can have the fantasy that things are different, and with those who know we are recognized but do we want to be recognized, really,,,,so thought provoking as always, thank you.
ReplyDeleteYes..knowing..not knowing..how much you reveal..what is the truth any more..it is all such an unholy tangle..thank you too Ellecee..
ReplyDeleteI felt the cold, as in an empty house that has never known warmth. Saddness in winter, seems like it hurts.
ReplyDeleteYes..raw cold is hard physically.and inside..thank you Annell.. x
Deletesoooooo sad. I hate the cold, inside and out. It seeps through everything stealing the colour from life. I hope you get warm and have a proper hug x
ReplyDeleteYes cold is unshiftable at times..thank you Dandelion Girl..the hugging advice is sound x
DeleteI like this one
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