I hide behind Alice, hot chocolate in my hands
In my home - my safe place - one that I created for myself -
One that can’t let the bad people in
In my home I savour looking over words and pictures -
Whatever, whenever I try to turn away my fears by looking
I sing and other people sing too
I smile and other people smile too
I hope that in time I can move into the truth -
Occupy it with an eye-smile (blue and steady)
I feel this connection like a fire inside
Growing and hoping
Despite the pain and work to be done
I feel reassured that you are always with me
I want you -
After all I bought you into existence